Beginnings and Beginnings and Beginnings

March has always felt like the time for new beginnings to me. More than the new year, certainly more than the doldrums of cold and dark January, March feels like a month for exciting changes and fresh starts.

I’m thinking about this now for a couple of reasons. The first – Rebecca over at Fake Flamenco asked for my ideas about a poetry challenge theme for this month. I don’t know if she’ll choose my suggestion, but the question got me pondering nonetheless, and here I am. The second – Y’all, am I ever ready to start writing some fiction again. So, so ready.

I’ve mentioned several times over the course of the last couple of years that I miss writing. It’s been hard to find the time to really sit down and work. Even now, as I’m typing this, Lucy is right beside me, chomping on some blueberries and watching me type. But I want to commit to finding a routine, to making a way forward, and to getting words down on paper once more. I’m not afraid of a challenge.

And in that spirit, I thought it would be fun to share some of the…let’s just call them starts…I’ve gotten on some new stories. These have come together in pieces since Lucy came, and I’m not sure where to take any of them. But I feel like there’s some good stuff here, and I’m excited to see where it might go.

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Here’s a haunted house story I started in October:

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“It’s like something out of a storybook,” said Gracie.

My sister says the same thing about orange tabby cats and latte art, but in this case, she was right. The house on the bluff was a dream. It was more than we could have hoped for. And there’s a lot you’ll ignore, when your family needs a new start. The Boatswain’s House sat quiet and empty for almost five years. Everyone thought it spent that time just crumbling. It didn’t crumble. It waited. It waited, as it turns out, for us.

There were three of us, when we moved in. Soon it would be four. My mother, my sister Gracie, and me. My youngest sister, Haley, was still in my mother’s belly. I was jealous of her, to tell the truth, warm and safe and protected in there, even before the house. At seventeen, I had two jobs, school, Gracie, and college applications to take care of. My mother, bless her, had her two jobs – waiting tables in a diner at night and managing a lawyer’s office during the day – and a home to make for us. And my dad’s mess. My father was a good man, once. Before the injury, and then the pills, and then the online gambling. I remember him before, all hugs and heart and calloused, loving hands. I haven’t seen him in years. We don’t know where he is. He probably doesn’t, really, either.

He left us in the one-bedroom apartment we had to rent because he didn’t pay our mortgage. He left, and my mother bloodied her fingers every day for months while Haley grew inside her, trying to pick up the broken pieces of the life he’d promised all of us. He meant it, when he said it, and for a long time, he delivered on it, too. She worked all the time, and when she wasn’t working, she was cooking, and cleaning, and singing and dancing and playing with Gracie and smiling even though she wanted to scream loud enough for the devil himself to hear her and answer. 

All of it changed with the house.

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And here’s something about a work retreat. (I’ve never been on a work retreat, but I hear they’re a nightmare. Seemed like good fodder for a story.):

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There’s one thing you should know about me, before I tell you this story: I am not an outdoors person. I like air conditioning, and clean bedding, and functioning toilets, and please, for the love of God, running water. But a requirement is a requirement, and so, just like all the other poor schmucks at the office, away to Camp North Star I went. If not exactly against my will, at least against my better judgment. But when the boss says “Mandatory,” well, money’s money, you know? Need it to live.

The brochure advertised four nights and five days in “scenic woodlands.” Great teambuilding activities, like “our challenging ropes course!” Gag. “Rustic cabins.” All the usual crap. And as we loaded onto the bus – a bright yellow school bus, of all things – I could tell that not many of us were looking forward to the “adventure in the mountains” ahead. Gary from accounting actually looked like he might throw up, and Susanna from HR stood there counting her hand sanitizer bottles. Bob from customer support was hosing himself down in Deet.

“God, I hope this stuff actually works,” he said, desperately, as I walked past.

“Don’t look at me,” I told him, my hands in the air, a gesture of defeat. “I’m just planning to let the bugs win.”

I went to camp once before, when I was in middle school, at the insistence of my exhausted mother.

“You’ll love it,” she’d said.

A sprained ankle, a stolen backpack, sun poisoning, and about a thousand mosquito bites had proven that mother really doesn’t always know best.

But I slapped a stupid smile on my face, and climbed aboard the big cheese, determined to prove once and for all that I was, in fact, an enthusiastic team player, and totally worthy of that promotion I’d spent the last six months chasing.  

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And here’s something about a mysterious book:

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The book waited, as books do. Books are patient things, and this one was no exception, at least in that regard. And so, in a gloomy shop on the corner of Washington and Chestnut, it sat gathering dust, minding its own business, and waiting for the day someone would notice it, pick it up, and take it home. And, best of all, read it. It had to be just the right person, and the book knew that person would come. One day. Until then, it waited.

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And here’s something about a ring. What about a ring? I’m still not sure:

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Just a ring in a shop, that’s all it looked like. Squeezed in among others, behind a shabby glass case, you’d barely have noticed it. But I did. I wish I hadn’t, but we can’t go back in time.

“Pretty one, that,” said the frail old man behind the counter. “Came in just a few weeks ago, part of an estate out in the country.”

It was pretty. Even crammed in with all the other, more flashy rings, this one stood out. A simple, thin gold band, and a bright, rainbow-flecked fire opal, cut in an oval. Understated, I remember thinking. Elegant.

“Do you know how old it might be? Or who might have made it?”

“I’m afraid I don’t,” he answered, “but I’ll tell you what. I can give you five off the price, if you’ll take it today.”

I walked out of the shop with a lighter wallet in my purse and a new ring on my hand.

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And here are just a couple of good opening lines from two different potential stories. I’d like to do something with these one day:

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“There’s a saying in my family. I don’t know where it came from, or how long we’ve been saying it, but I’ve heard it every day, ever since I can remember. We say: There is no cure for dreaming.”

“The first time I heard it, I confess, I didn’t believe it. But lies are like that. They have a way of winding themselves into your soul, of spreading and growing and devouring, like kudzu vines on the trees, like wildfires in summer.”

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So, what shall I do with these?

I love writing. I love creating. I know that a lot of your love it, too, and that’s why we’re here: To make, and to share, and to build a community of people who support each other. I’d love to know your thoughts! Tell me which one you think I should return to first, which one’s your favorite, or which one you just don’t think you’d read.

And maybe, someday soon, I’ll post a new story.

Until then, keep dreaming and creating, and I will, too!

Weird Things Writers Do

My name is Katie, and I have animated conversations – by myself, out loud – between characters I made up. Often on my porch swing, where all the neighbors can see. (I’m sure they’re not paying attention.)

Y’all, writers are weird.

Or maybe it’s just me?

Am I late to this party? Yeah, probably. But I was sitting outside last night, thinking about a scene I wanted to write, and acting out the dialogue – very energetically – and I thought, “You know, if someone didn’t know you, they might think you’re not all there.”

When Graham first saw my carefully chaotic assortment of mostly empty notebooks, I think he found it kind of charming. Now…well, now he knows me well enough to mostly ignore it. But also wonders why I need so many and why they all need to live in a pile on my desk but also beside the bed and in the living room and behind the driver’s seat of my car just in case I hear something funny in public and want to remember it.

He’ll never get used to the questions, though. Random questions, all the time, especially to people I just met. I’ve gotten pretty good at fitting them into the flow of a good chat, though. Like, if you met me, you probably wouldn’t even realize I’m gently interrogating you for the purposes of storytelling. Unless you’re a writer, too. Because then you’re probably doing the same thing.

I can’t remember the moment I developed most of these little weirds. Was I always like this? Probably. I used to get in trouble a lot for daydreaming, even when I was really little. I continue to view daydreaming as my superpower.

Oh, and my coffee’s gone cold. That happens a lot, too.

So anyway, are you normal, or do you too collect and hoard notebooks like they’re a finite resource?

Because if you do – if you, too, are weird like me – we should probably be friends.

The Long (Break) and the Short (Story) Of It

Here’s the short of it: It’s been over a year. I am so ready to get back to writing. And I mean, real writing. Like, creating. You know, the magic – putting words together and making something that didn’t exist before it came together on a blank page.

Here’s the long:

Having a 1-year-old, and the year and change in between her birth and now, is busy, crazy, different every day, and exhausting. It’s also amazing, inspiring, fun, and its own kind of magic. Lucy is my whole life, and finding ways to bring her needs into harmony with my own has been a challenge that I meet in novel, interesting ways every day. Some days, I succeed, and we’re both satisfied. Some days, I…don’t succeed quite as well…and she is happy and her needs are met and I have not even brushed my teeth. Time for writing? Nah. I barely have time to eat. “Well, you’ll make time for what matters.” Dude, have you had a baby? SHE matters. More than anything else. But I matter, too. And I do want to make time.

So, where does that leave me? What does it mean?

It means that, for the next month, I’m going to sit down at least once a week and jot down ideas, and good lines of dialogue, and when I can, a few paragraphs of beginnings and endings. And come January, I’m going to start posting short stories again.

I don’t know if I’ll do a theme like I have in past years, or if I’ll try something different. Back in October of 2023, I posted the start of something fun, and maybe I’ll revisit that. I would like to know how it ends.  

I don’t know exactly what my writing will look like in the new year, but I’m going to do it, and there will be stories. I hope you’ll read them!

But for now, Lucy’s waking up from her nap.

What makes a good ghost story?

Halloween and Christmas are my two favorite holidays, and I’d have a really hard time choosing between them. But there is one thing that I love that’s definitely more Halloween, and that’s a good ghost story.

(As you can imagine, A Christmas Carol is an absolute forever favorite. Christmas and ghosts? Yes, please!)

But over the last few weeks, as I’ve been sitting a lot, thinking about writing without actually writing much, I’ve been pondering: What makes a good ghost story? What elements come together to make something truly spooky? Or sad. Or happy. Not every ghost story has to be scary. Right?

Or should it?

When I think about my favorite ghost stories, there isn’t really anything consistent among them. Some are scary. Some are psychological. Some are funny.

I love BBC’s Ghosts, which is funny and heartwarming and about as far from creepy or spooky as you can get. I was really struck by the quiet, tense storytelling of I Am the Pretty Thing That Lives in the House. Netflix’s The Haunting of Hill House is sort of a revelation for psychological hauntings – the things that haunt us not because they’re real ghosts, but because they’re our ghosts. The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman is sweet and sad. Jonathan Stroud’s Lockwood and Co. series (the books, but the show on Netflix, as well) is such an interesting exercise in building an alternate world that feels close to our own, but is one we definitely wouldn’t want to live in. And certainly some of the old stories, like The Turn of the Screw and The Tell-Tale Heart, they stick with me. That building sense of dread, there’s really nothing else like it.

All of that to say, there are so many components, I think, that can make a really good ghost story. And some that can make an otherwise great story feel hokey and silly. Jump scares are fun, but they need to be used sparingly for maximum impact. There’s more to fear in what you don’t see, what you imagine and build up in your head, than in what you do see.

I’m rambling, I know. But I’m curious. What are your favorite ghost stories? What draws you in, or pushes you away? How do you like to see ghost stories end? Do you like to be scared in the first place?

I do, within the secure confines of my comfy chair and cozy living room. And that’s the power of stories, isn’t it? To be scared – or sad, or angry, or worried – but ultimately safe.

Focus? What focus? (Or, The Art of Writing in a Construction Zone)

I find myself once again at the end of a month without a completed short story to post. I’m working on it today, and have been for the past several days. It’s a good one, but not quite done. And that’s just going to have to be okay. I’ll have it up on Friday, so be sure to check back.

Why the delay? Well, a few reasons.

The first is that it’s not easy to focus when you’re living around dust and dealing with construction noise. Don’t get me wrong – our contractors are amazing, they work fast, and they do a really good job of cleaning up at the end of the day. But when you’re me, and (controlled) chaos in the house feels like (uncontrolled) chaos in your brain, it’s still just difficult to work around. The good news is that the dining room ceiling is stable and sound…

…and work has started on updating and expanding our master bathroom.

The second is just that life is just busy right now. I’ll share more on that next week, but for now, I’ll just say that there are lots of things, including renovations and construction, vying for my attention at the moment, and they’re all important, and I’m just not balancing them super well. I’ll endeavor to work on that in the future.

And the third? Well, it’s me. I’m the problem. I’m allowing things to distract me, and I’m making excuses. They’re good excuses (see: above), but I need to prioritize my writing. It’s as simple and as difficult as that.

So, onward, and by Friday, May’s story will be written and posted and done and dusted. The house, however, will not be dusted. And that’s okay, too. For now, I write.

Travel, Rain, and Trying to Write a Short Story

Well, owing to a combination of a very busy week and my own poor planning, here we are, precariously close to the end of the month, and I haven’t even started April’s short story yet. Sigh.

We’re visiting family this weekend, and we drove down yesterday. It’s so nice to see everyone! And I desperately want to spend this time together, rather than tucked away in a corner trying to write. The good news is, it’s raining today! (No, seriously, this is good.) That means that it’s probably going to be a quieter, slower day, so maybe I will have some time to step away and work for a bit. We shall see.

The other good news is that we brought both Annie and Merlin down with us. Annie loves road trips, but cats don’t usually like to travel (an understatement), so we wondered how Merlin would feel. But he’s been doing great! He didn’t complain in the car, and once we got here and he explored a little bit, he pretty much decided he owns this space now, too. That cat…totally unflappable, I’m telling you.

Anyway, if you don’t see a short story from me by Sunday, I promise to post one next week. And that means two stories in May! Which is breaking my rule a bit, but I figure, we make exceptions for things that matter, right? And family matters a whole lot.

In the meantime, I wish everyone a wonderful Friday and a lovely weekend. Happy creating, y’all!

July’s Short Story

It’ll be up by Sunday at the latest! Honestly, I haven’t started on it yet, but I will, and I’m sure it will be good.

In the meantime, I wish everyone a lovely weekend! And for now, enjoy this picture of Annie (the Snow Dog), who doesn’t like this heatwave any more than the rest of us.

Friday Writing

Hello, Friday! Hello, Spring!

It’s so hard, when it starts to get warm again, to focus on work, and it’s been a busy week. But I’ve managed to stay on top of everything, and I’m spending today just writing. And drinking coffee. Which definitely helps with the writing.

And you know, I think this is honestly my favorite way to spend a Friday.

Just writing…

Today it’s cloudy but not snowy, and as of this moment, we still have a hole in our basement wall, and I’m just feeling sort of…blah. It’s been a stressful week. We ran out of propane yesterday, a problem which has since been sorted but was terribly uncomfortable for the better part of the day. And we’ve both been busy and trying to balance work things with the house chaos.

All of that to say – today, I’m just going to write.

I’m just going to write, because aside from reading, it’s the thing that makes me happiest. The writing zone – that spot when you’re really into what you’re creating, and the rest of the world just sort of melts away – that’s one of my very favorite places. I love the feeling of letting everything else go, and just being carried away by words and by story. It’s magic. There’s nothing else quite like it, and no other place I’d rather be right now.

And it comes with the advantage of marking some stuff off of my very long and ever-growing to-do list! I’m working on a script for an upcoming podcast episode, and a longer-form fiction that I have some ambitious plans for, and of course, January’s short story, which I think will be very inspired by the winter season and the quiet, cold time in between Christmas and spring.

So, that’s me. Just writing. And also there’s coffee. As Fridays go, this one’s not so bad. And hopefully by the end of it, I’ll have some good stuff down on the page.

Happy Friday, and if you’re spending time writing today, too, then I hope that it’s fun and rewarding, and that you create something amazing!

Thank you for 500 followers!

What a wonderful milestone to reach on this first Friday in December! I’m so grateful to each of you who read my work and keep coming back for more, and so happy to be part of this amazing creative community. I’ll be celebrating tonight with a glass of bubbly and some Christmas movies, and I’ll be back on Sunday with a new Sunday Supper post. So come back and visit! 😊

In the meantime, I wish each of you a very lovely weekend!