Dull,
brown,
dry as dust,
the trees and ground
cry out for rain.
The skies tease and threaten,
rushes of wind
and clouds of gray.
How long, I wonder,
can it possibly go on this way?
But the drought
goes on
another day.
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What It’s Like (A Poem)
One breath.
Two breaths.
A day at a time.
And what a funny thing –
to wait and dream
this way.
I never thought of myself as
a mother,
and now,
I wonder who I’ll be in an hour,
a month, a year,
how I’ll change
and stay the same
once she’s here.
I’m excited to meet us both.
The Coming and the Going (A Poem)
I can feel it, even now,
in the cool night air
and the subtle shift in the evening light,
and in the gentle way the leaves seem to sigh
and say,
“We are tired, and ready to let go.”
As one season waves goodbye
and another prepares to cross the threshold,
I breathe it in and wait,
and know:
All things come in their own time.

Waiting (A Poem)
The dark clouds roll in,
thick and heavy,
carried by ominous wind.
And we can only wait,
baited breath and ready.
Now is the season for storms.

Muddy Water (A Short Story)
*Here’s July’s short story, just a little bit late. Hopefully August will be less chaotic and stressful. Thank you for waiting patiently, and for reading!*
The river was my grandfather’s sanctuary. He was never much interested in church, or in people, but he loved that muddy brown water with every fiber of his being, and in it, I’d say he found the closest thing a human can ever find to God.

The river was his church, preacher, and pulpit, and his Bible was an old tackle box he got when he was just a kid, not much older than I was that very first time he took me fishing.
It had rained that week, big, fat, heavy drops for days. That didn’t matter. To my grandfather, the river was sacred and worthy, whether it was high or low, slow or rough, clear or thick and dark as molasses.
“We might not catch much,” he said.
“S’okay,” I answered.
“Well then, put on something long and light. Mosquitoes out today.”
“Yessir,” I said.
The sun had finally peeked out from the gray cloud cover, and while he didn’t mind to sit by the water’s edge on a damp day, my mother wouldn’t have allowed that behavior from me.
“You know full well that child will catch a cold and we’ll all be sick for two weeks,” she’d lectured, and my grandfather, patient man that he was, had sat there and listened with a calm face and kind eyes.
We set out after breakfast, gear and chairs in the bed of his old red and white Ford, and a cooler full of sandwiches and root beer, courtesy of my grandmother. She’d prepped an empty cooler, too, and filled it with ice.
As the truck rumbled down the holler road, I could feel my heart start to beat faster and faster. I was excited, sure, but I was not exactly an outdoorsy kind of kid. I guess in that way, I took after my mother. My grandfather had always loved wild things. I think he saw something of himself, some fundamental piece of who he was and how he connected to the world, in the chaos and the unpredictability of nature. I just found it frightening. And I think he knew that, because he looked over form the driver’s side and said, quietly, “Nothing out there in that water wants to hurt you.”
“I know,” I told him.
My first real experience with the river had been my big brother’s baptism earlier that year. He’d loved every minute of it, and said he felt washed clean. I’d sat at the water’s edge with my parents and counted the snakes I could see slithering just under its surface. No one else looked even a little bit bothered, but in my head, I could just feel them, scaly bodies twisting around my ankles, and I couldn’t get that fear out of my mind. My grandfather never seemed afraid of anything, especially when I was young.
We pulled up to his favorite spot right around the time when my hands started to shake, and as he got out to unload the car, I sat still in my seat.
“Come on now,” he coaxed.
“I just need a minute,” I said.
“You won’t feel any better in a minute than you do right now. Hop on out,” he answered.
I did as I was told. I’m ashamed now that I was so scared. I was ashamed then, too, though my grandfather always told me there was no shame in being afraid, so long as you did the thing that scared you so bad anyway. And here we were. This was his holy place. I trudged around the truck bed and grabbed a chair, and we plodded down the soggy bank to set up for the day.
“Over there,” he said, “up in that tree, you see it?”
I looked and shook my head.
“That’s an eagle’s nest,” he said. “And further up that way,” he pointed, “I spotted some muskrats the other day.”
I nodded.
“It’s warm,” he added, “so I reckon we’ll see some turtles out. They’ll be sleeping on logs.”
“My friend April has a turtle,” I said. “It lives in a tank.”
“Probably not a very happy animal,” my grandfather said. “Wild things belong outside.”
“She named it Leo,” I said.
“I guarantee you we’ll see a few Leos today,” he told me. “But what we’re really here for is fish.”
He propped up our chairs and set out the polls. He showed me how to add bait, but I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t force my fingers to handle that slimy, writhing worm. He noticed, and did it for me, and then he sat down with his own poll, and signaled me to do the same.
“What now, Grandpa?”
“Now,” he said, “we wait. And we talk. We think. And with any luck, we bring home dinner.”
I thought there would be more involved. Looking back now, I see why my grandfather loved his spot by the water so much. It was quiet. All around, I could hear birds, the breeze, little bugs skimming the surface. I listened for snakes, not quite sure what they might sound like, but eventually, I relaxed. I fell asleep, though I’m not sure for how long, and woke to the sound of my grandfather’s voice.
“You got one,” he yipped.
“What!” I cried.
“Reel in your line,” he said, excited and fast. “You caught one!”
I think instinct took over, and I reeled. I reeled for what felt like forever, and at the end of my line, dangling from the hook, I found a silvery blue fish, not much bigger than my palm.
“Want me to show you how to take it off?”
I nodded, and my grandfather walked me through the process of removing fish from hook. I tried, but as it squirmed around in my hand, I flinched. My grandfather laughed and said, “You already did the hard part.”
He took the line from me and pulled the fish, and dropped it in a cooler by his side.
“Did it hurt?”
“Huh?”
“The fish,” I said. “Did it hurt?”
My grandfather thought for a moment, and he answered, “I’m sure it did. But we’ll have food for the night.”
“Isn’t that mean?”
“We eat fish,” he said. “So do bears. Even other fish eat fish. Nature gives us what we need. It’s not mean to use it, not if you use it well.”
I’d never seen anything die before, and I thought of that poor fish, suffocating in the cooler. Years later, I would decide to forgo meat entirely, but when you’re little, you eat what you’re given. Or, as my grandmother used to say, you don’t eat at all.
We caught a few more over the course of the day, despite the murky water, and we did see several turtles resting in the sun. My grandfather explained the way of the river, the animals that called it home. He included himself in their number, I know now. We drove back late, just as the sun started to set, and pulled our dirty boots off on the carport.
“Good day?” My grandmother opened the screen door and ushered us inside. “You catch anything, June bug?”
I nodded and smiled. Though it hurt me to hurt an animal, I could tell my grandfather was proud.
“She’s a natural,” he said to my grandmother.
My grandmother fried up what we’d caught, not much but enough, especially supplemented with corn bread and green beans. We sat down to dinner that night, and eating something I’d caught did make me feel a kind of way. Not pleased, exactly, and not ashamed. Aware, maybe, is the best way I can think to describe it.
I think my grandfather had planned more fishing trips for us. I know he wanted to share that with me, but that’s not the way it turned out. A few weeks later, my parents told me we were moving, and my only visits to my grandparents after that were always too short. Holidays, weekends – never enough time. I have that one memory of him in his favorite place, and I cherish it. I’m not wild, and at the end of the day, I suppose, neither was he. Not really. But when I think of him, I think of the river, deep and wide and full, and I can feel it flowing in me, too.
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Thank you for reading! This is the seventh of twelve stories I’ll write for my 2023 Short Story Challenge. The theme this year is: Wild.
Here are the first six, if you’d like to read them:
I hope you join me and write some stories of your own this year! It’s fun, and I hope this will be a happy year full of good stories. But just reading is fine, too, and I’m glad you’re here.
The next story will be posted at the end of August.
Everything’s Fine (A Poem)
Short story?
What short story?
Oh, yes, that was today.
Well, see,
owing to a total lack of coffee
and a brief hospital stay,
it’s going to have to wait.
But that’s okay,
and most important,
(at least for now)
everything is fine.
There will be time.
Fly (A Poem)
It’s been a little while since I’ve done one of Rebecca’s poetry challenges over at Fake Flamenco. July’s challenge is a good one! Here’s my entry:
How lucky
are the little birds
to fly –
unafraid,
perched high and serene,
unconfined.
If I could,
would I?
It remains to be seen.
But I can watch the world
from my own
perfect perch,
the nest I’ve made.
It’s not as big
as the sky,
but it’s
mine.

These are so much fun. 😊 If you’d like to participate, too, you’ve got until Sunday. Can’t wait to read what everyone submitted! It’s so cool to see all of the different perspectives on one theme.
I Can’t Sleep (A Pregnancy Poem)
At this point, I’ve bought
FOUR
different pregnancy pillows.
And you know what,
I still can’t sleep.
I suppose it’s not surprising,
not a big mental leap
by any means,
since I’ve never been good at this.
But it sure would be nice
to curl up for
at least one night,
totally at peace.
And I have to wonder,
for those who can,
for those lucky ones who
drift off
quick and easy:
What is the secret?
Like, I have to be missing something,
right?
RIGHT?!
(I’m tired.)
Dandelion Days (A Short Story)
I remember dandelion greens. In the warming days of spring and the sweltering days of summer, dandelion greens – stewed, fried, sauteed, cold and crunchy with salt and vinegar in my favorite red-rimmed bowl – growing wild all around the hillside and down into valley. Sweating under the white hot sun, pulling dandelion greens from the thick, fragrant grass with my small, sticky hands beside my mother, stooped over to find the very best, the very plumpest, the very brightest.
I remember those days with my mother. Daddy worked nights at the mine, and he’d come home early in the morning covered from head to toe in coal dust. We’d wait for him together in the kitchen, eager and relieved to hear the roar of his engine coming up the driveway. He’d kick his boots off on the carport, and my mother would open the door for him and kiss his blackened cheek.
“Good night and good morning,” she’d tell him.
“Good morning, Daddy,” I’d pipe in from my spot at the table in the corner.
Mama named me Louise after her grandmother, but Daddy always called me Weed.
“I think you’re even taller than yesterday,” Daddy would say to me.
He’d smile at Mama, get cleaned up, and we’d eat our breakfast together before he went to bed for the day and my mother and I got to the important business of running the house. And in the early evenings, before he went back to work, we’d all sit down together for a dinner that Mama and I planted and gathered and cooked.
I knew plenty of other children whose fathers worked in the mine, and though we didn’t show it on the outside, on the inside, we were an anxious and sorry lot. I got used to seeing my friends pulled away from the classroom during the day, always for some tragic news. That, at least, I didn’t have to worry about. But the fear that Daddy wouldn’t come home in the morning, that we’d never sit at our little table and laugh over buttered grits and field greens again, that fear never left me.
“Can’t Daddy do something else?”
My constant question.
“What do you think he should do instead?”
My mother’s answer.
I didn’t know what he might do instead. But I sure knew that I’d rather have him home and safe, even if it meant we had to eat dandelion greens every day for the rest of our lives.
When eventually the inevitable happened, I can’t remember that I was surprised. We got the call in the early hours of the morning that there’d been an accident, and that Daddy had been injured. He was alive, which felt most important, but he’d be laid up for months. His back, Mama said.
“I’m fine,” he told us. “It’ll take more than some faulty equipment and a stroke of bad luck to lick me.”
Mama nodded, but picked at her fingernails. I said nothing.
Daddy must have seen the worry on my face, because he added, “You and me, Weed, we’re as hardy as they come.”
Mama got a job. She had to. But she told me it wouldn’t be so bad, and that I could come with her when I wasn’t in school, because she’d be watching a little boy about my age, and we could play together while she cleaned the house.
“Who is he?” I asked.
“You don’t know him,” my mother answered, “because he goes to school at home. He has his own teacher.”
“Is he nice?”
“I’m sure he is,” Mama said. “I’ve been told he has very good manners.”
I winced. Manners weren’t something we talked about all that much.
“Oh, don’t look like that, Louise. He’s not a different species. Y’all will get along just fine.”
Mama was hardly ever wrong, but no one’s right all the time.
The first day I met the boy, I found him sitting in his back yard, setting up empty cola bottles on the lip of an old stone well. On the covered porch, I saw a toy bow and arrow.
“You a good shot?” he asked me.
“Don’t know,” I said. “I’ve never tried.”
“I’ll show you,” he said. “I’m Malcolm.”
“Louise,” I answered.
“Wheeze?”
“No! Loo-eeze.”
“That’s a funny name,” he said.
“It isn’t,” I insisted.
“Well, I’ve never heard it before, so it must be,” he said.
Things did not improve from there. Malcolm was a good shot, and he tried to teach me, but he had a critique for every little thing I did, even beyond backyard archery.
“You’re eating your soup wrong,” he told me one day at lunch.
“What’s wrong with how I eat?”
And days later, “That’s not how you’re supposed to climb trees.”
“Well, why don’t you show me, if you’re so good at it,” I retorted.
“I’m not allowed,” he said. “But I know wrong when I see it.”
All the while, Mama worked away in his house, one of the largest in town, and she did it with a smile on her face, even when he only had a sneer for her.
“My mother says the curtains were dusty yesterday,” he told her one afternoon.
“Well,” my mother said, keeping her voice as mild and as even as I’d ever heard it, “I’ll make extra sure to get them clean today.”
Driving back to our own place that night, I couldn’t keep my mouth shut any longer.
“Malcolm’s mean and snobby,” I told her. “I don’t know why you put up with him.”
“Louise,” she started.
But I couldn’t stop. “If I acted that way, you’d make me go and pull my own switch. He’s not nice, Mama.”
“I know that, honey,” she said. She brushed a hand through her hair. “But I’m going to tell you something important, so listen real close, okay?”
“Okay,” I said.
“Sometimes, we have to do things we don’t like, and we have to put up with people we don’t like, because there are more important things than our feelings. Your daddy can’t work right now. We need money. I’d work for someone half as nice as Malcolm and his mother if I had to, because right now, that’s what I can do to take care of us. Understand?”
I nodded, my face aflame and shame radiating from every part of my body. Mama was always looking out for us.
“You don’t have to come with me if you don’t want to,” she went on, “but I like knowing you’re close by. And maybe you can teach Malcolm a thing or two. You know, his world is real small, smaller than mine or yours or Daddy’s. His mother thinks that’s best, but maybe he’s mean because he doesn’t know any better.”
I went to work with Mama the next day resolved to do better myself, and I decided that I could start by trying to be nice to Malcolm. Maybe I could teach him something. And so when we went out back to play after lunch, I told him all about Mama’s garden and how we’d grow things to eat, and how I was learning to cook. And as I made us crowns out of white wildflowers, I told him all about dandelion greens.
“They’re kind of like these,” I said, and pointed to the flowers I was picking. “They grow wild, but they taste real good.”
While my fingers weaved delicate stems together, I told him about the afternoons Mama and I spent outside together, how that was our time to talk and sing and laugh, and how proud I was that Mama knew so much about plants and how to find the best ones. Then I popped the finished crowns on his head and mine and said, “We match!”
“You’re so weird, Louise,” he said. He got up and walked inside, and left me in his back yard to wonder what on earth I’d done wrong this time.
I didn’t go back to work with Mama the next day, or any of the days after that. While she was gone, I missed her fiercely. I looked after Daddy, and in the evenings, I made us dinner on my own, as best I could. Eventually, Malcolm’s family moved away.
“Somewhere up near Richmond,” Mama said.
Daddy got strong again and went back to work, and Mama and I resumed our usual routine. One day, out in the heat gathering stinging nettle for soup, I asked her: “Do you ever wonder what’ll happen to Malcolm?”
She stood up straight and thought for a moment. Then she said, “I imagine he’ll live some kind of life. Not like us, but it’ll be something.”
Sometimes, when I think back on those days, I wonder about Malcolm, about where he ended up and what kind of man he is today. I wonder about Mama and Daddy, too. I wish I could ask them questions. I wish I could go back, even for a minute, even for a second, and feel the hot sun on my back, the dew and dirt on my fingers. The fact of the matter is, we ate dandelion greens because they were free. They sprung up around us like lightning bugs in June, and it cost us nothing to gather food from our own land. Nothing but time.
I think back, and I wish I’d had more of that time. I’d spend hours now, if I could, picking dandelion greens. Maybe it’s true what they say, despite this mean old world and the people in it like Malcolm and his mother. Maybe the best things in life really are free.
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Thank you for reading! This is the sixth of twelve stories I’ll write for my 2023 Short Story Challenge. The theme this year is: Wild.
Here are the first five, if you’d like to read them:
I hope you join me and write some stories of your own this year! It’s fun, and I hope this will be a happy year full of good stories. But just reading is fine, too, and I’m glad you’re here.
The next story will be posted at the end of July.
Busy Bees (A Poem)
Keep busy,
little fuzzy buzzies,
at your most important industry
and know that in this garden,
you are safe.
Just look at the state of it –
overgrown and ardently wild –
a sign without a sign to say:
Pollinators Welcome.
(Humans, Proceed with Caution.)
I always hope that one day,
probably far away,
I’ll become a gardener.
In the meantime, then,
how lovely to see
that at least I’ve helped create something:
This space for you to gather
what you need.
And how nice, indeed,
to think that Nature nurtures
all on her own,
regardless of me.
